Love, Purpose, and Life's Little Imperfections > a mess everywhere...should I start with the kitchen? How??

Hello!
I have just finished reading your book, I loved the metaphor of the house connected to our emotional/life "messes"...I think a woman can really relate to Home as an image of our interiority.
I have always been striving for balance, rhythm, harmony.. but it seems like an aimless quest! My whole house is a mess... and I find myself stuck, paralyzed as to where to move next, what to do, and with no energy...
I think the main problem underlying everything is lack of energy and direction (as in confused in how to clean up and where to start)
Am in my forties
bedroom = single (have been so ...forever?) I would love a longterm committed relationship but only if it's really "the" thing, I know how to be by myself and love my freedom. I am not the kind for romancing around so I am mostly alone, enjoying my solitude yet craving for a deep soulful connection. I do miss the sex but can't find any interest in if it's not in the above context. it just does not seem to happen, I meet the "wrong" guys and tend to clam up forever not sure I can trust again and afraid of getting hurt again
office work and finances = I love my profession in the helping field, I am freelance and love doing my own thing on my terms, but the economy is really low and I am hardly making it...it's a big problem but I can't seem to find the energy to come up with a solution new idea right now
bathroom = very tired overweight skin problems and so on am trying to take care of myself but it's always on off can't seem to create a lasting foundation for myself, I lose weight exercising and eating healthily then it all just comes back....(have been really good in the past year and a half but a medical condition with my thyroid + adrenal glands has put me back to start...I gained all the weight again and am very very tired)
kitchen = the reason I believe it all starts here is that my house is literally a mess, full of clutter, and I am always so tired it seems like an impossible ordeal to clean it (not in metaphor, literally) but I really would love to have my friends over...I just get stuck in repeating the chaos, mess clutter, and keep everybody out
I cant' rest read, recuperate and create because all my energy is drained by the mess but I can't seem to clear it because I immediately feel exhausted and confused
the house is small and overloaded and I am overwhelmed
sorry if it got long
the point is I have the impression I am forever starting over and putting all myself into it every time , but can't seem to create a foundation, a lasting system rhythm...
I am losing hope and feel lost
I sense the start should be with the mess-clutter but it is so daunting and just gets into a mess again and again and it fells my whole life is on hold till I find the energy, space to breathe
thank you

March 7, 2012 | Registered CommenterBluejay

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